kini enda penunga indu tu lama enda ayan

engka nyu sebulan begawai.

nadai jaku nya.

i must say, it's the most odd gawai celebration of all time

that we had this year - no gawai.

yup, you read that right.

instead, we spent it hanging around the house doing nothing.

except daddy, weird all he was, putting down all the curtains around the house

and cleaning the house - yes, you read it right again.

cleaning on the morning of gawai.

suppose that we have gawai at daddy's longhouse - ulu krian.

unfortunately unc. james enda ulih lama,

enggai nyadi lama ninggalka aunty lama ba bintulu.

nya kami naka pagi 31st aja ba rumahpanjai.

nganjung diri beramika orang nikah aja.

anyhow, it's my first wedding reception at our longhouse.

so-so lah - but lots of bits and bits since most of the

residents' not fond of the bride's father - big snob.

argh, i hate my writing (today) - feel so blurby.

must have my mood getting in my ways.

might have my period in any days.

ya kan... we also didn't stay at aki's house at saratok.

another weird thing that actually i know what's behind it.

so many things happen so far,

wonder whatever will happen next.

sometimes im just feeling okay,

nevertheless the worries always terrorize me later.

hate it.

this uncertainties is my worst nightmare.

hate it.

i don't even know what's my point in this post.

just all this mixed rantings, frankly speaking,

is what i have in my mind all the way i rant on.

playlist:

bencinta by faizal tahir

knock you down by keri hilson ft kanye west

never knew i needed by ne-yo

nothin' on you by b.o.b ft bruno mars

dakota by stereophonics

you're my star by stereophonics

suara (ku berharap) by hijau daun

love lost by the temper trap

all i need by within temptation

p/s: see all the songs in my current playlist,

proved that im so dreaded in my own gloomdoms.