Advance Merry Xmas & Happy Nu Year!

journey to maturity

for two semesters,

you have been with me

through my ups and downs.

you watch

me cries and laughs,

you watch

me tell jokes and truths,

you watch

me blurs and annoys,

you watch

me write and muse,

you watch

me sleep and awake.

when i feel

i'm missing something,

i will crawl to you,

and pour all

my thoughts,

ranting why does

this and that

happen to me,

how could people

being cruel to me,

why i'm lonely,

where's my wrong,

where's my right,

why times fled slowly,

but you turn it all to the brighter side...

you teach me to

turn a new leaf,

you teach me to

smile,

you teach me to

accept others,

you teach me to

accept my wrong,

you teach me to

forgive,

you teach me to

cry,

you teach me to

write,

when i'm suppose to.

it's a journey

throughout

maturity,

where i can

revise all my mistakes

and turn it into a new lesson.

p/s: dedicated to my blog; enaid rednaloj. thank you.

bugger never end...

...but as i told before, to get rid of those type of people is easy as abc, so (1) appear permanently offline to him, (2) delete him from list, (3) ignore him. and boy, i'm glad to do that. though i'm kind of annoyed why can't i just 'blocked' him like i did to others before. hey, the 'block this user' is not on his pane, so it took me a long route to get rid of that fugly being.

okie, what's with my story, out of nowhere suddenly i ignore this being? i've been im'ing this fellow i know from rp.com last night - or maybe since last time he use his cute friend's ym that i thought that was him (poser!). i felt annoyed when he request for a cam viewing after i say no; he refused that i say no, he didn't notice it, so he said. as from here i think he's a fucking jerk. you know last time (for those who got me in their ym list) i use the 'me with the pink ice-cream' as my avatar; obviously i swap it with the one 'i close my mouth with my colored nails'. and another thing, i stripped down my blog address for security reason. now i can't put it there again, since his friend's still on my list, just in case he will use his ym to chat with me again.

the second stroll (although it's not harm as it seem, but what comes on the later is the real deal) he asked if i got boyfriend, i lied then said i have. then he asked if he's handsome so i said, 'of course he is, because he's my boyfriend'. then he asked me (oh, my imaginary boyfriend is so cool, hahaha), 'would you even trust your boyfriend', and question that tailing later getting harsh you know (if i got boyfriend anyhow i'll told him about this jerk and sure the jerk will get what he should get - kapowww), when i told him that i really trust my so-called boyfriend, he jerks out and told me, 'you shouldn't trust your boyfriend' (oh, like you know my boyfriend so well) and said, 'he must be a sweettalker that you trust him so bad' (oh, what the fuck; this is what it takes when you're too beautiful that a jerk like this guy would asked me vulnerable questions like this - erks, beautiful me?). sampai tahap aku pertahankan teman lelaki ku yang imaginary itu??? believe me, he asked me the same questions over and over again as if to make me grow doubts over my so-called boyfriend. he admit that he's jealous that i got a boyfriend. then, he advice me to be careful with my boyfriend and not to trust him too much, what the fuck? so i have to chat with him and answer more of his stupid questions afterward...

today, it's taking up to a distressing level. when as i turn on my lappy i set it to 'busy status'. and somehow this 'anak adam', i mean the same annoying guy buzz me, over and over again. man, he didn't get the note (status) and he surely get something from me. but no, i try to not be rude at first (you know, i've been waiting so long to do something like this to someone like him ;) mind me being naughty), so i told him, 'look up at my stat, it's busy and i will chat to you later on'. like a jerk he is, he said he KNOWS and he INTENDLY DO THAT TO BUG ME? what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck? did he think he's cute to do that? oh gosh, sayang i don't have him on my list anymore, sure you guys will puke all the way to the end of this entry. why god, why do i have to know this freaking jerky guy like him? oh, wait, thank god, he's a gift for an entertainment - saying looking at the bright side ey..

so the battle started. i fire him a, 'even have a heart to bug others, even my (so-called) boyfriend won't dare to'. i said i want to do a revision and he said, 'how come you be so hardworking, come on, chill out, don't stress', yeahhh righhht! by that time i am sure he'll get something from me. remember, i still on my busy status and i told him that i'll chat to him later. iban says, 'majak iya', so he pushed himself so hard that he's getting something. yeah. i like this part. suddenly he said, 'wow, cool nails you got' (my multi-colored nails), and remember that i'm still in busy stat? heheheh, yeah, we're getting there. so i told him, 'dang, you're freakin weird dude, haven't you got what i said before? i'll chat to you later thing?'. he said, 'oh, don't feel weird, but mind me i am weird but true (pelik tapi benar, what the fuck?)'. yeah, i know, he's acting cute; in the middle of my busy stat? hello?

so i fire him a, 'sik faham bahasa ke, if you're getting there i don't mind to block you from my list'. okay, i was translating our conversation from simply kelaka sarawak, but this one i can't so you can get what i mean. he said, 'i don't mind if you do, because i don't know you'. feeling simpathy, i said i took back my word (block him). despite my sympathy, he step on my head and said, 'you don't need to tension it up, i know that you're stress a lot study over there', and i think, oh fuck, like you mind, i've never been tensed up studying here, so i told him, 'i'm not stressed over revision, it is you that stressed me up'. then he added up, 'buzzing is nothing, how come you be so emotional over that'. yeah, from here we can see his stupidness. he's a real jerk.

for those who KNOW YM, to buzz other people is polite when they're in available mode - not in the busy mode (although i was not, actually, hahaha, aku sengaja cari pasal he's a real jerk). so i told him about the politeness in buzzing other people (he thinks that's cute, i mean, buzzing) and he told me that, 'that's the temptation; godaan dan cobaan' can he slipped in a p.ramlee script in serious matter? how stupid that guy is. so fucking annoying. forgot to tell, i was still telling him about the politeness of buzzing other people when he told that. until, 'your eyes look beautiful, just like my friend's' and a 'helo sayang' from him. talking about ignorance eh? so i ignore him for good and delete him from my im's list. end of the story. and i'm glad. though my hand's getting itchy to trash him once more, just that my heart can't take it anymore, because he's freaking annoying ;)

lesson of the story, stick to the rule guys, no matter how suck it is. even the remeh temeh of ym still got its own rules ;) peace out peace in, leave out leave in - what the hell am i talking about?

p/s: WHY DO I ALWAYS GET A JERK? EVEN NOW I STILL GOT A BUNCH OF THEM IN MY LIST! HUHHH!

update:

1. the problem is, people label me easily. and i don't like that. totally a no-no. words like, 'lawa mai, sumbung mai, anang hingat, anang ringat, anang nganu, etc' really pissed me off. and makes me even wanna tenyeh tenyeh that person so hard, moreover when i label them back (just like they did to me) they would blame me a LOSER LIKE THE NIGEL GUY:

nigel_kst (11/16/2008 8:05:18 PM): lawa mai dik..
dN[jimmiKillMe] (11/16/2008 8:05:27 PM): nyeh, mimit utai madah orang lawa
dN[jimmiKillMe] (11/16/2008 8:05:39 PM): ops, ukai hingat, ukai nganu...
dN[jimmiKillMe] (11/16/2008 8:05:50 PM): bosan la aku meda org madah kenya
nigel_kst (11/16/2008 8:05:59 PM): pia..
nigel_kst (11/16/2008 8:06:05 PM): ok lah..
nigel_kst (11/16/2008 8:06:07 PM): bye..
dN[jimmiKillMe] (11/16/2008 8:06:13 PM): ok bye
nigel_kst (11/16/2008 8:10:48 PM): next time tunjuk agi aku apa dik dapat ok... enti setakat skul tinggi makai gaji 5ribu ke baruh libuh xtion ka peda high class...
nigel_kst (11/16/2008 8:10:58 PM):
dN[jimmiKillMe] (11/16/2008 8:11:25 PM): aik, tetiba jak nganu org, stakat aku madah bosan meda pkataan 'lawa' nya, peda meh sapa salah, okie

... minutes later, i reply him back after i unignore him ...

nigel_kst: kami tok world company keja... schlemberger nemu dik..
dN[jimmiKillMe]: au...
nigel_kst: mcm urg temu kami..
dN[jimmiKillMe]: au...
dN[jimmiKillMe]: jd smua org gawa ba schlemberger baka nuan magang la? o...
nigel_kst: fuck u!!!!!!!!!!
nigel_kst: nama dik jako baka nya..
dN[jimmiKillMe]: au, trima kasih amat amat

update:

2. sarcastically, i think that nigel guy haven't got a chance studying in university, that's why he said, i'm a cheap girl and 'fuck you' stuff. huh, talking bout that, never ever say you're a schlemberger worker, so others won't misinteprate. ;)

wanna do something stupid?

log on to any youtube video, post a comment that sounds like this, "arghhh, aku suka gila gila kat cita nih!!! best laa scha & irma berlakon, spontanious!", don't click on 'post comment', here's the funny part - click on 'Audio Preview'. this one, is not something that i watch on any site; i experienced it myself while watching the 'Awan Dania', and oh boy, what a cool story that is. just like what i post on one of the drama's youtube clip, i lovvve it like hell!